My first day of enforced absence from work today, and quite frankly it's sucked balls. I went to the CAB and saw an adviser who gave me half an hour of considered, supportive advice that collectively amounted to a weary shrug. In fact I've derived more hope from the rather splendid comment left for me following one of my rants about the situation - it's much appreciated, and does offer some good news seeing as I did indeed fuck something right up accidently rather than on purpose. To put it another way, I'm David Brent rather than Finchy. To be honest, I can deal with losing the job if that's what happens, and it could prove to be a turning point to a more fulfilling career, but the realisation is that you really need to have money to have any optimism, and it's really the potential loss of a solid wage that's making me struggle to hold down my Noodles To Go in fear and anxiety. To whit, this rather appropriate slice of fact:
Peniaphobia is the fear of poverty.
I remember hearing in a recent training session that '80s electro wizard Dave Stewart was afraid of wealth. I asked whether he was actually afraid of losing his wealth, which drew a mild smattering of amusement. This annoyed me for two reasons - firstly, my observation didn't get the laughs it truly deserved, and secondly it was only half a joke, and I was trying to make a serious point. I just clenched my fists and said nothing, but at least now I know that fear of poverty is something different. I wouldn't say being afraid of poverty is irrational, so it hardly counts as a phobia, but it is clearly something that affects people in different ways - certainly some people, including the joker at the CAB, appear to think I'm being slightly hysterical in worrying about where the money's gonna come from. I'm concerned about my income to the point where I'm actually considering applying for a traineeship at ITV. Dark days indeed at Knowledge Towers.
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The CAB and the any information you may choose to research can only advise you from the letter of the law so to speak. I will say again if you believe what you did is defensible defend away, stand your ground. Remind them of their failures towards you as an employee, their failure to train you for the situation you found yourself in and consequently the common sense approach you took with no guidance because they are so overstretched. Let them know that they failed you as you believe clearly that you did not fail them. Then we come to the other issue of the job itself, I know this is a huge disappointment, but cover your options, regardless of the outcome, look for something else then you will have choice instead of fate to deal with. All the best.
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